I have heard people use the expression "Ive hit a wall" oftentimes in a non-running context. It is such a cliche! It signifies reaching the end of the rope, empty tank, a point of frustration, giving up and turning back.
In my mind, the wall is constructed of things like fear, pain, loneliness, hopelessness, burden, doubt, guilt, exhaustion. Total mental, spiritual and physical exhaustion. It is a black hole, a gap in our fence and has the deadly potential to carry us away.
When you reach your limit, your wall, the end of your yourself - what exactly happens next for you? Do you find release? Grace? Do you break down? Or do you break IT down? What gives first - the terrain or you?
I wonder if its possible to draw a new starting line for yourself when you think you cannot muster another step? Oftentimes, I imagine a rope attached to my core that carries me forward when I am too tired to maintain proper form. I guess its when you think you cannot take another step, and in that sweet moment you find out what your really up against...and what your really made of....
Logged in 16 miles this morning. I wanted to go longer but this is the longest I've had in a month so this is me taking it easy.
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