Thursday morning - an easy 22k in 1hr 50 minutes.
Friday morning - same as yesterday - 22k, except I walked the last mile and finished in just over 2 hours.
With the husband away, I managed to accomplish my goal of running 50 miles in 3 days. This evening, there was a fun run that was organized by a local running group. I won my age group and my prize was a bottle of wine - so happy!! Last time I won a race was in 2007 and those were ice cream vouchers - they clearly know the way to an athlete's heart! It was interesting today. I have not felt competitive AT all for more than 2 years and now all of a sudden, its all coming back. I am also 5 kilos heavier which means - I love how I look but hate how my legs feel at the end of long runs. My best running weight (105lbs max) is not my best looking weight (120lbs plus).
Anyway....
I ran 10k at 5.30pm, came home showered and now cant wait for dinner: Vongole and wine and chocolate will be involved!
I cant wait wait to run in the morning tomorrow!
Friday, October 15, 2010
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Monday, October 11, 2010
It been a long time since I updated this thing. I feel alot better when I put thoughts down after an introspective run - when I dont, I feel like I bottle things up and then....well, lets just say its awful for someone with self-destructive tendencies!
Anyway, too much is happening at my end - I still manage 40-50 miles a week. Nothing too taxing! This week however, I am mostly by myself and I want to get out there atleast double of what I have been doing lately. Most people dont test themselves enough to really know if they have a second wind. I face my deepest fears when I break physically. One of them being a fear of failure - so deep that I would rather not begin. I dont fear quitting - because I dont quit something I start. But I do fear starting - and I know that about myself.
Its funny, In my journal from many years ago I was working through a book called 'Fearless' by Max Lucado. Its about the subject fear and courage and on the top of the page I have scribbled in caps words 'VULNERABILITY OF THE TRY'. I think we all do in some way: we hold back because to try would expose us, would make us vulnerable. When we "try", make our thoughts and goals known, take on a position of leadership, we become vulnerable. Suddenly it is stated, for the record, that (fill your name) is trying (fill the thing).
I thought about this on my workout this morning, quite by coincidence and I tallied up my TRY and this is what I came up with: I am going to try to be a good wife; ideally a very good wife, I am going to make myself more open, I am going to keep working on my passion and hopefully translate my love of words into something that resonates and roots in my chosen vocation, I am going to be a good daughter to my larger family now and lastly, hopefully, be a mother and also 'mother'. Thats all I have on my list. Oh and running. I want to be a better runner. What about you? What are you trying to be better at these days? and How are you making peace with the vulnerability of the try?
Dont be afraid of putting yourself out there. Ever!
About my workout - 800/1600 singles stair sprints in 140 minutes. I was dripping with sweat and changed twice! I hope to be more regular with this writing thing!
Anyway, too much is happening at my end - I still manage 40-50 miles a week. Nothing too taxing! This week however, I am mostly by myself and I want to get out there atleast double of what I have been doing lately. Most people dont test themselves enough to really know if they have a second wind. I face my deepest fears when I break physically. One of them being a fear of failure - so deep that I would rather not begin. I dont fear quitting - because I dont quit something I start. But I do fear starting - and I know that about myself.
Its funny, In my journal from many years ago I was working through a book called 'Fearless' by Max Lucado. Its about the subject fear and courage and on the top of the page I have scribbled in caps words 'VULNERABILITY OF THE TRY'. I think we all do in some way: we hold back because to try would expose us, would make us vulnerable. When we "try", make our thoughts and goals known, take on a position of leadership, we become vulnerable. Suddenly it is stated, for the record, that (fill your name) is trying (fill the thing).
I thought about this on my workout this morning, quite by coincidence and I tallied up my TRY and this is what I came up with: I am going to try to be a good wife; ideally a very good wife, I am going to make myself more open, I am going to keep working on my passion and hopefully translate my love of words into something that resonates and roots in my chosen vocation, I am going to be a good daughter to my larger family now and lastly, hopefully, be a mother and also 'mother'. Thats all I have on my list. Oh and running. I want to be a better runner. What about you? What are you trying to be better at these days? and How are you making peace with the vulnerability of the try?
Dont be afraid of putting yourself out there. Ever!
About my workout - 800/1600 singles stair sprints in 140 minutes. I was dripping with sweat and changed twice! I hope to be more regular with this writing thing!
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